my selfships!

this is a carrd of cyrus' selfship collective! use the buttons above to navigate! last updated 6/7/26.

amuro ray

"that's our purpose, we have to show the world the light in the human heart."

getting into the universal century timeline for gundam around the same time that i started my physical transition absolutely changed my life in many ways that i was not expecting it to, and i even got to pick up a new guy along the way! amuro means a lot to me because of this, and i relate with him a lot as someone who also has a traumagenic disorder and is neurodivergent. i admire his dedication to creating a better future despite everything and i find his interest in tinkering with gadgets charming! i think he's very admirable as both a person and a mobile suit pilot, and thinking of healing with him brings me a lot of comfort. i decided to make our ship anniversary the same day as my official T start date as a symbol for growing alongside him, and for how UC changed my life for the better. (i have a lot to say about him, might add onto this later...)

choi "thanos" su-bong

"sweet ass tracksuit looking tight, hope i get the green light!"

i already knew i was doomed the minute that the his character teaser trailer dropped because this is definitely the kind of guy that plays very well off of my self-insert OC's personality (basically, they match each others freak in a way that is alarming, they're perfect for each other (derogatory), etc.). so, yes— this is a guy who fits perfectly with vani's strange antics that i typically portray him with. both of them bounce off of each other's weird and off-putting vibes very well. they're like two bugs that you find in your sink at 3 am (affectionate). they are perfectly, cartoonishly bizarre together! (i need to try and rework this ughhhhh)

aichi sendou

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pairing myself with both aichi and amuro feels so natural because i admire them for a lot of the same reasons; they are both dedicated to making a better future, and they both learned to grow closer others despite the hardships it took to form their bonds. part of their confidence comes from having forged these connections with others, and from excelling at things that they're highly knowledgeable about. for aichi, this is cardfighting! i loved watching him learn and grow from all of his card battles, and seeing his confidence bloom over the course of the series warmed my heart <3 he is very strong and adaptable and nerdy and i like these things about him a lot.

vanitas "vani" lobato

art by pancakemoth

art by nohartandsoles

this is my primary self-insert OC, who retains most of my traits from real life, with a few exaggerated ones mixed in for fun. he is a short tempered, impulsive, stubborn, brash, ditzy, zany, silly sleepyhead! vani is intended to be molded to fit whatever canon i put him in, so some of these traits may be toned down or exaggerated even more to match the situation or plot. his physical traits remain the same across all verses, though; he is a medium-tan/beige-skinned short king (approximately 5'3''/160cm) with dark brown wavy/fluffy hair (sometimes short, sometimes down to his collarbones) with sleepy eyes and two earlobe piercings in each ear.his backstories are also all AU-specific/dependent, as i change them slightly to fit the canon that his F/Os are in.i have other self-insert OCs that can be viewed here!

furry design; art by werewolf-affliction